Broken Me

(c)giulia101 of weheartit

How do you say that you are broken?

I'm broken. I actually come from a broken family where my mum and dad separated when I was three years old. In my dreams, I cried heavily wanting to be with mum again. Well, that's in my dreams. In reality, as what my grandma told me, I had no reaction at all. I didn't even ask where she was nor mentioned the word 'mum' after she left. 

My dad was devastated as well. The first memory I had with him was when I didn't want to be carried by him because I did not have any prior memories with him. The second memory I had with him was his back walking away from me and, not wanting to see me. 

Nobody knows I was hurting because of the past. Nobody. Every feelings I had when I experienced this were all inside me.

This is the first time I completely understood the words "I'm broken."

Spring of a New Life

What & who I was?

(c) camila of We heart it

I wonder what I was when..

...my mother first touched me with her hands.

...she called me by my name for the first time. 

...I first felt her first breath upon me.

...my dad first caressed me.

...I first heard his voice.

...I first saw his smile or heard his laugh.

...I first felt the touch of air of the earth.

...I first experience my first day and night on this world.

...I first felt the warmth of the sun. 

...I first experience the coldness of nights.

...I first heard the sound of the birds, crickets, dogs, cats and lizards.

... I first opened my eyes.

...I first smelled fragrance.

...I first saw the sky.

...I first touched the plants-- its leaves, branch and roots.

...I first cried because of hunger.

...I first cried.

...I first smiled.

...I first laughed.

...I first felt scared.

I wonder what I was and who I was when I was born.

Introduction

(c)  AdelyaKuaysheva of We heart it

I always think and think. 

I think of things that I think a 21-year old like me should not think about. Those people who have the same age as me think nothing of the things I think. 

An example of the things that I think:

I wonder what would happen if I were born not on this present time, but in the future or in the past. I wonder what would happen? 

Will I still be the way I am now? My feelings, thoughts, actions and attitude. Will they be the same? 

Will I still meet those people whom I've met in the past of the present time? Will they still be the same-their totality- or not? Will I love or hate them just the way I feel towards them now?

How about my surroundings? My family? My situation?

Everything. Will they be different or will they be the same?

If they would be different, would the me-my present totality-now exist in the past? Or will it only stay in the present, that is, now. 

Would my thinking be the same? 

This is an example of what I think. 

Probably, there are other young ones who have the same thinking as mine. Do they also feel tired? Do they think of these as bothersome or important?

I wonder.

I always feel tired with thinking.